This time is for real

So, this time is for real. I'm not backing out... No matter what... This is my time to BE. I feel I like him so much (a different him, of course), but it is very possible that it is a trick of my mind; because I just don't want to be alone... But now, I kind of want to be alone. If I'm able to commit to myself, I'll be able to commit to others more surely; beginning for my friends and family...

Would I love to kiss him? To just be near him? Like that night? Sure, but I just read something: "Si haces lo que siempre has hecho, tendrás lo que siempre has tenido". I have had enough of the same. I don't want to be that insecure, jelaous person anymore. I want to be able to love, without so much fear... and that, (is common sense) begins for loving and accepting myself.

Am I repeating the same crap most people do? Sure, I might even sound like a chick flick. But I honestly feel it; the need to be alone, finding, questioning, building... no pressure from the outside.

What if any guy comes and tells me he loves me and is the guy of my life?? Then nothing, I'm nobody's girl but my own right now. That IS a fact.